Grr... My mom makes me so mad, it isn't even funny. I was supposed to help Alesia with her math right so I would go over to her place after band but no, I can't. Doesn't matter that I fucking let her down. Doesn't matter that Alesia might fail math. Doesn't matter that I now feel like shit for ditching her like that. No, only my mom's throwing a little hissy fit because I left a message for a ride but when I got to the doors she isn't there so I get a ride from Cheri and then I go home to find that she has been waiting for half an hour when I only called 15 minutes ago. Nice Mom, don't know how that works. But I'm just feeling the love. She pisses me off beyond belief I forgive her/move on and she only does it again. It's not fair. I mean she gets all pissed that she has to drive me places but she won't let me walk so what am I supposed to do? Not go according to her. Well I got news for you mom, I'm a fucking teeenager. Get used to it. It's not like I get drunk or high or do any of that stuff. I should and then go back to normal just to fucking show her how lucky she is. I've had a job for over half a year and apparently I'm still irresponsible. All I ever get from her is complants/orders. And no thanks for the stuff I do. She sits there telling me I'm fat and that I should go on a diet but guess what. That doesn't really help. She tells me I have bad attitude. Hmm... who did I get that from? Couldn't be you. You are just the most perfect human being on the planet. She tells me that my friends think I smell bad just because I got bath stuff from them for my b-day. Well you should just go to hell. I'm tired of listening to you. I have my entire life. And if I had a place to go I'd move out. Personally I don't know why she is complaining so much. I'm a straight A student. Got a job. Not addicted to any drug. And am polite to people. Sure I'm fat and I speak my mind some times but everyone has flaws. Apparently she just can't live with mine. My brother was what my mom always wanted in a kid. Sure he might not have done so great in school but he listened to her. Maybe because you didn't feed him garbage or maybe he just faked listening. Either way she liked him in a way she has never like me in.
Truthfully I don't know why I am telling you this. I just want to say that even though I get mad at her I still love my mom. Not too sure that she loves me but last I heard she did...
1 comments:
I can see why you are frustrated with your mother, but I think you and her should have a little talk (note that I did not say "a little scream"). I am no Dr. Phil, but I think she needs to learn to appreciate you more.
Also, maybe she is just trying her best, but she feels as though she is not getting through to you. Why don't you try and show her that her opinion matters to you, but also let her know you have your own life to lead and your own choices to make.
On another note, you should consider typing your posts in paragraphs. It is a little hard to read if there are none.
Also, try and name your post titles more...to the point of the post. In other words, instead of using smilies as your post title, use a title that describes the content of the post so it will be easier to find if you ever want to read it again.
Post a Comment